we hugged at the top of the front porch steps.
then, with a smile and a “Bye, Mom, I’m off!”
he ventured down the steps and out to the sidewalk
alone
yet not alone

i was three paces behind him
to catch him if he fell
to hug him if he felt afraid
to cry with him if he injured himself
to laugh with him if he giggled
to reroute him if he got lost
to protect him if he ventured off track
to smile with him when he reached his destination
to feel pride that he had walked to school “on his own”
because for days we had practiced the route
and he knew that I would be “with him”
… following close behind
… giving him that sense of independence
… and sense of security
that the one who loved him was with him
in ways that may have been indefinable, undetectable, inexpicable
yet oh so very real

that’s how I see the Creator
always present
allowing me space to be independent
encouraging me to make my own decisions / choices / mistakes
go my own way
aware that the One who loves me is with me
in ways that are often indefinable, undetectable, inexplicable
yet oh, so very real
photo & text  © june maffin   SOULartISTRY    www.soulistry.com
<photo damaged, but the memories it evokes of that oh-so-long-ago morning when my son proudly walked to his first day at kindergarten (and I walked behind him) are irreplaceable.  When he stopped, turned around, showed me his first-ever watch with a huge grin on his face and shouted with such delight, anticipation and excitement in his voice “I’m going to school!”, my heart melted.  This photo recalls each treasured step of that walk to his first day at school when he was “alone – yet not alone.”

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